Depression

[luv1another]

ok thought I should do an update...
I am seeing a counsellor...which wasnt helping...tho I am keeping my house tidy now.
3 dys ago I finally decided I had, had enough. enough of crying for no reason, enough of the anxiety for nothing, enough of the self hate and stuff...I went to the dr and he prescribed meds...I am now on efexor-xr we shall see how its goes. it takes 2-6 weeks to take effect

[Child of Immanuel]

Sometimes you just have to take the meds. After six miserable years of being off, my mom just went back on them.

[luv1another]

yeah COI I guess I was kinda in denial that I needed them...like I have always been strong and able to get through anything thrown at me. this time I havn't meh I am seeing glimpses or normality so I am hoping this will be the right meds and I wont have to change 3 or 4 times like other people I know have.

I know one thing depression really does make you a diffrent person in a lot of ways

[twyrch]

Kaz, I'm glad things are looking up for you. Hopefully this will be the right set of medication for you.

Keep the faith!

[laurelin]

I don't have depression problems, at least, not seriously the way you seem to. But I do have anxiety problems, and I understand the process those kind of things take you through. At least for me, I've always felt like people won't take me seriously if I tell the truth, and really, most people don't understand what it's like to feel panicked in perfectly normal situations. After my last job, I thought it would be easy to take control of situations; I had more confidence in myself, and I knew I had done well there before I left. But the same problems came back, and I was just as inept at dealing with them.

I realize that my anxieties are groundless and I overreact to it. But even when people recognize that my problem is real, all they can tell me to do is to "get over it."
In the same way, I imagine most people don't understand what it's like to feel depressed and unable to get over it, unless they've had it. The most help I found confronting my problem has been from people who have had the same problems (as karenee said).

You're right to get help; don't feel embarrassed because you need medicine. I have friends who have had to go on medication for depression and anxiety, and it's helped them.

Don't get frustrated if it doesn't get better all at once, because it won't. Just take everything one day at a time, and find strength in whatever small doses you can. I know everyone here is praying for you, and even though I'm not around much, so am I.

[luv1another]

thankyou twyrch and laurelin

an update for you guys since I know some of you are praying for me
well the blood tests the dr did the day he gave me meds came back...
apparently my thyroid is not functioning properly causing low metabolism and slightly high cholestrol.
this could also be the reason behind the depression and anxiety since thyroid can cause this too.

I go get more blood tests done in a week to see if there is any damage or something or other and to see what paticular levels are *shrugs*

as for the effexor for my depression it seems to be working which is great tho I may need a slightly higher dose.... also my sleeps still disturbed but its not a big problem as long as I am not depressed and anxious to the extent I was I will get through

thanks to all that are praying

[Gwalchmai]

Well first and foremost, I'm glad to see that things may be moving in an upward motion, even if at the very least, its more information.

Now I've tried a couple times to respond to this thread, trying to give some sort of comforting advice and it seems that everytime I did the reread before I clicked "post reply" it just wasn't right. It just never convied the message I was trying to send to you. Which generally speaking was that there is always hope.

The hope may not be that you get better, it may be that one day you can say the right words to the one person and change their life for the better or to out a true smile on the face of someone who has lost something emensely important. Maybe its just to be part of something astounding that may or may not change the course of human history. But in the end, it needs to be something important to you and only you. No one else can say how you feel other than you.

Everyone has a place all there own, and that place is our gift of life. It cannot be swapped and it cannot be priced, it is our domain that can weather the most terrific storms which is a testiment to our survival. So when that storm comes with all its fury stand tall and hold fast and trust in hope that it will come to an end and you'll be there to see it. By the grit of your teeth and the steel in your eyes.

Thats something I tell myself almost everyday in some form or another and have found a great deal of comfort from it. I can only hope these words can help you a little, if at all. But most of all I hope you blaze your path out of depression and onward to a kingdom of happiness and bliss.

I'm sorry but I don't pray because of other personal belielfs so I can't send you my prayers. However, you will be in my thoughts with a feverent hope that you come out of this healthy and whole. And of course, if there is anything that I can do to help, it will be done.

[luv1another]

thanks gwalchmai you said that really well :hug: thanks for the encouragement